I’m sad. Jack, Eina, and Vivian are flying back to New Zealand. I had a really tough day. I waffle between really wanting to eat crap and really wanting to not eat and having an upset stomach. Oh, that’s between the crying bouts. I was able to get the kids to school today, get Pulguito’s [...]

So today, I went to group and work, and took the kids to the dentist instead of going into my parents house. It was really hard last night to say to Eina that I wasn’t coming in on Tuesday. When I say goodbye every evening, she looks at me and says, “You are coming in [...]

Remeber when I filled out the Risky Situation Worksheet? Well, today is the day! So far so good. It’s 9:15. I am not on schedule. I forgot to take into account how late we were going to stay up last night. It was Parents’ Night Out at daycare. Robert & I went to dinner. He [...]

What is the situation? Robert is taking the kids camping, so they will be gone overnight. The last time this happened, I binged on a chocolate candy bar. The time before that, I binged on cookie dough. What are your expected urges? A binge on something sweet & fatty in the evening, after dinner while [...]

Today was Food Log Day. So I brought up a problematic day. On a recent Saturday, I went out on the boat with DH, Chunguita, & Pulguito. For breakfast, we went out to the Railroad Cafe where I had 2 eggs, canadian bacon, pancakes, coffee & water. We went to see the mothball fleet and [...]

I went to see the EAP counselor yesterday to talk about exercise resistance. I learned that resistance is its own field/area/category? in psychology. It seems it goes back to Freud. Anyway, she said that if a person is resisting, then the person is engaged. I didn’t really get this until I applied it to a [...]

Actually, I’m more mad than that. I’m fucking pissed off. Today is Tuesday; the day that I have my CBT group in the Kaiser Eating Disorder program. So I drive up to Walnut Creek from Livermore only to find that the group has been cancelled. They didn’t even call me. I’ve been in the group [...]

Part 5. When working with an exercise resistant individual, one must explore and resolve the source of the resistance, such as underlying anxiety, resentment, or anger. The goal of treatment is that the individual will be able to become physically active by choice, not coercion. It is important to begin by validating the resistance and [...]

Part 4. A theme ran through the comments of the women studied that echoes the information in chapter 4, “Sociocultural Influences on Eating, Weight, and Shape.” Most of the women expressed that they felt extremely degraded and vulnerable by their direct experiences of being encouraged to exercise as a means to achieve an acceptable body. [...]

Part 3 THE MEANING OF EXERCISE RESISTANCE To better understand exercise resistance, we can borrow from our understanding of how weight loss diets have affected eating behavior. We know that weight loss diets are a key aspect in the historical mistreatment of overweight individuals, in many cases actually contributing to binge eating, which increases over [...]