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December 15th, 2008 at 8:55 pm

Feeling a bit better

in: General

I’m doing a bit better. I think that tomorrow morning, instead of wanting to stay in bed and avoid facing the day, I will want to get up.

I called the coroner’s office today. The guy on the phone couldn’t tell me anything, which is what I expected, but he also said the preliminary report isn’t going to be done for at least a month more and that it might not be until March for the final report. It seems the physical aspect of the autopsy was inconclusive, so they are waiting on the lab reports.

A sergeant and a detective from the Alameda police department came today to interview Jack and Eina (again!). They took the bed that he was sleeping on; it was an inflatable. And they took the pillow. The sergeant thinks that something happened; based on his general health (excellent) and his age (almost 3), the likelihood that he sufficated because he could roll over was very, very small. And I guess, the autopsy would tell them? I dunno; on TV, they always find things in their lungs when a person is smothered. Of course, they get the lab results back in 20 minutes instead of several months, too. So that isn’t reality.

The detective told Eina that they did find fluid in his trachea. My mother (aka Abuela) is going to call Sergeant Wong at the coroner’s office on Wednesday. Sgt. Wong told my mom that he would tell her what was in the autopsy findings. He’s not back in the office until Wednesday.

We’ve scheduled the memorial service for Thursday at 11 am.

And I’m back to my usual pathology of (subjective) binging and thinking about purging. I think that’s another sign that I’m feeling better. From Friday thru Sunday, I was so numb that I didn’t think about eating at all, and I could barely eat. It was weird. For a while I felt like my hands were swollen. That’s been a reaction before under extreme stress (like when my thesis needed all these changes, and I was moving to California in a couple of days). But I also felt almost dissociated from my body, like I couldn’t feel my fingers. Both of those are gone, for tonight at least.

Oh, and thank you, Sonya, for flying in from Denver. Your being here and staying at my parents takes a huge load off of me.

PS Thinking about purging and not purging is a huge success! Just so you know.

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