Age?: 40

Height?: 5′ 7″

Weight?: 204 pounds

Lowest Weight?: 130 pounds

Highest Weigh?: 240 pounds

What weight do you want to weigh?: 150 pounds, but I’ll take 195. My hunch is that if I ever get down to 150, I’ll want to weigh less. When I was 130 pounds, I wanted to lose 5 more pounds.

What eating disorder do you have?: I have Bulimia.

In Depth

How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: 2000, but that is only becauase I’m in therapy now, and they told me that if I want to get well, I need to eat at least that much.

Do you throw up your food on occasion?: I tried, but I wasn’t very good at it.

Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: Not really. I’m 40, and I don’t want to look like a young teenager or even like I’m in my early 20s. I want to look my age. I’d like to thin, tho.

Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, i.e. soccer or track?: Extracurricular? I swim. I ride my bike to work, sometimes. I chase my kids around the playground.

Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: I don’t think so. My mother made some cruel comments about my body.

Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: I used to be able to fast for 5 days at a time, but as I’ve gotten older, I’m unable to do that.

Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: No.

Are you ‘inspired’ by models/actresses?: No, besides I know they are airbrushed.

Have you ever been hospitalized for your ED?: NO.

Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: Yes.

Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: I’m in therapy.

Body Image Q’s

Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: I’m more than 50 pounds overweight, so, yes, I see myself as fat. When I was at or below 150 pounds, I didn’t think I was fat, but I thought I had fat thighs and tummy.

What part of your body would you change?: I’d have my prepregnancy breasts and tummy.

On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: 5, it’s functional.

Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: Not solely, but I’m sure I’d be a better person if I were thin.

Because of your body appearance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: I don’t think so, but I was very depressed. I’m on meds, now.

Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: Absolutely

Health/Food

Do you think you eat healthy enough?: I try.

Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: Not really, but they can be trigger foods for me.

Fat grams?: I was fat phobic.

Calories?: I count calories.

Are you often tired/fatigued?: Before the SSRI, I was all the time.

Do you feel more energized after eating food?: No.

Do you eat meat?: Yes.

Do people tell you look sick or famished?: No.

Have you ever thrown up blood?: No.

Is your heart bpm above 49?: Yes.

Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: No, but I have low blood pressure.

Other Stuff

Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: I think it plays a part

What’s your opinion of Pro-Ana?: I’m totally against it. It’s a bunch of children whining.

Do you have any other mental disorders? Depression

What’s your favorite food to eat?: Donuts and danishes

Favorite drink?: Latte.

Do you often wish you didn’t have an ED?: Yes.